I’m Reading Again!

I love books. any kind of books that I believe would nourish me.

So the other day when I visited my friend’s house at 11.00 o’clock at night, I purposefully roamed for her book collections. Then I came across this book :

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Gobsmacked and jovial were the exact words! I have the whole collection of Sophie Kinsella’s shopaholic series and I remember feeling so desperate wanting to buy this book as well. However, I didn’t have the money to buy and my membership at one of this book club didn’t have this title.

My friend was kind enough to lend me this book. Mind you, I haven’t had time to read from cover to cover for about 1,5 years now. Maybe time is not the issue here. I am a believer of whatever you prioritize, you’d make time for it. no matter what.

One week past and I still didn’t touch the book but deep down a voice inside of me saying that I got to read the book. Deep down, I miss the feeling of reading the actual book and touching the actual paper. I’ve been reading but it has been just articles or news on my gadget.

So yesterday (Friday, February 22, 2013), I gathered or my innerwill and grabbed this book and began to read. Thankfully, I have a time off from work  (I happened to take off sick because I was really sick). I spent almost half day reading and I even read while I was getting a full body massage. (Speaking of getting down to commitment).

Oh yes I did it!  I read the entire 405 pages half day yesterday and about two hours today.

Sidetracking, I have a confession to make. I’m still failing on my 40 days oath but I’m going to get there and finish it. Oh I hope I will.

Back on this book-reading, I have decided to read one book in a month. I need to get back to reading because matter-of-factly, books always enriched you. Fiction or Non Fiction, there’s always something to learn.

And I love to learn!

So what did I learn?

Two things!

1.

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2.

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This book, I could totally relate to the whole story. The dreams, the ambitions, and the one thing that seems to bring your entire dreams and ambition thrown out of the window. and through that difficulties you learned that you actually enjoyed your life so much more than before. You feel like you found yourself through your loss.

Such as

1. Slower pace of life.

2. Loving the countryside.

3. Thinking of spending retirement on the countryside.

4. Enjoy being a domestic goddess 😀

I wonder who that the person mentioned above is ..*cough*

Off for now, time for another nourishment. and what I meant by nourishment is.

BOOKS

Yep, you guessed it right 🙂

40 Days Oath

I finally decided to brave myself to write down my oath which has long been despised, 40 days eating plain food (no sugar, no salt, no dairy, no fried food, no white flour, all healthy).

I have been struggling with food obssession all my life. Because of this, my weight kept on adding.  The worse was when I spent a year in the US. I gained about 12 kgs (26,5 lbs). I tried to lose weight since I was in HS but it never last that long.  

It’s been about 10 years last year I’m still struggling on my weight and my self-control in food.

Therefore, about sometime last year, I made an oath to God to eat plain food for 40 days. At that time, I felt like I was driven to do so. Up until now, I’m not sure whose voice was that but I know it’s indeed not my flesh. Who wanted to eat plain food for 40 days??

I said ‘yes’ but I never was able to complete that 40 days. I quit after 1 week, 2 weeks, or just recently after 3 weeks. It was indeed hard especially when I’m in a ‘big foodie’ community. My parents eat out every week and I could only sit and saw them eat. My friends sometime asked me out for lunch/dinner meeting and I felt so terrible making my friends feeling guilty of seeing me eat my own prepared food or sometimes not eating anything when I didn’t have time to prepare. 

The judgement that come to me was also hard to bear. They thought I’m stubborn when they asked me to eat even a little and I refused. Not everyone understood what I’m doing and sometimes I felt like a burden to them through what I’m doing as well. 

Actually I have two oaths to God that I have to fulfill. Honestly, I didn’t want to make this oath because I fully realized about the bible verses on making an oath. But aren’t we all supposed to do what we felt strongly asked by God?

Help me God to go through this. I really want to endure this 40 days with commitment and love. I know how unpleasant the feeling is when the one who we ask to do something do it with complain.

Phillipians 2:14 says “do everything without grumbling or arguing“. 

On a side note, I’m sure that doesn’t apply to every single thing that you do in life. I think that we shouldn’t  take this verse literally without putting it in context.  Of course sometimes you argued with your peers or your boss while doing something that they asked you to do when you felt that you have a better way of doing it. 

So anyway, here I am, honestly with fear wanting to renew my commitment of 40 days plain food starting tomorrow February 7, 2013 and ends on March 19, 2013 to You Lord. Help me to remember that Your grace is sufficient and I’ll endure no matter what the cost. Help me Jesus, I’m so afraid of failing you again. After failing you like gazillion times. 

I’m scared Jesus. Help me!