Being the only healthy-food conscious eater at home, I found a lot of untouched ripen or sometimes overly ripen fruits in the fridge and felt extremely guilty if it has to be thrown away. Now that I’m back in my health-food conscious state and I decided to finish the healthy ones before it goes to waste. 

On my day two of raw vegan challenge (yes, I’m going more extreme than the initial challenge that I posted on this blog), I found a ripen starfruit in the fridge and because I’m not at all a fan of this fruit, with every inner-will I had, I made a decision to chop it off and eat it later. A few minutes later, I also chopped pineapple and mango hoping that I could eat them all intermittently.

The next day, I had this sudden drop of creativity to blend the leftovers of chopped fruits and make it into a salad dressing. Bear in mind that I’ve never made from-scratch salad dressing let alone raw salad dressing. But i just knew that it will taste good and it DOES!!! It has this tanginess and sweetness of flavor.

I think I’ve converted from uber dislikeness to a starfruit fan as a salad dressing based. 


For the salad:

1 – 2 cups of romaine lettuce

1/2 cup of zucchini

1/2 cup of shredded carrot

For the dressing:

2 cups of starfruit

1 cup of mango

1 cup of pineapple

a dash of garlic powder

a dash of cilantro powder. 

Method : 

Blend the dressing ingredients and pour it over your salad. 




Beyond Healing

My Dad has been suffering quite some pains from the undetected illnesses/unclear diagnoses for the past two months. A lot of money has been spent for findings and medications.  

Unbeknownst to me, this undetected illnesses had caused him trouble sleeping for months. I knew it about a week ago when he suddenly asked me to book a ticket to Penang, Malaysia. Countless Indonesians opted for this country or Singapore for medications. I didn’t say a word but a lot of questions was raised inside my head. Why all of the sudden? My dad has rarely been sick in his entire life and if he suddenly asked for this, it must be something very very serious.

Before his flight on Sunday, August 18th, he and my mom squeezed their schedule to join church prayer meeting to ask to be prayed for. During prayer, a lady with the gift of vision saw that a lot of black pieces fell off my dad’s body. She revealed it to us afterwards. The understanding is that God is using the medical team to heal my dad. It’s a comforting revelation. 

Fast forward a week after, my brother and I fetched them at the airport. My parents began the conversation with the best news in life, the news of salvation. They say “You know what, 5 people received Jesus as their Lord and Savior.

My brother immediately led us in prayer and thanking God for what He has done. Suddenly, the atmosphere of our car turned into this praying atmosphere. My mom continued to pray after him and I continued to prayer after my mother. It was indeed a spirit-led and spirit-filled prayer. The spirit of God was so tangible that I was just balling and balling. I know it was the Holy Spirit when I said in my prayer “God, the salvation of those people is so much more important than my dad’s healing.” Those huge amount of money is not a wasted money or stolen money, it’s an investment in Your Kingdom. And You are still winning because 5 souls are won to Your Kingdom. Whatever the devil intended for harm, you always turn it into good!!! In everything YOU ARE GREAT and YOU ARE GOOD. That’s who you are God.

It was such a beautiful time in our car that we didn’t realize that 30 minutes went by in prayer.

We’ve asked for healing and it’s the truth that we don’t see healing takes place everytime. That’s why sometimes I got puzzled with all this ‘healing’ thing. I’ve read books and I’ve read the Bible on healing. There’s a lot of doctrine or books on healing but so far, no explanation given has really satisfied me. 

I know that God has a valid reason when He doesn’t meet our expectation of an answer. 

However, through my dad’s case, I’m reminded again to learn trust God in every situation and learn to see things from His perspective. The thing is, you can never see thing in His perspective if you don’t know really know Him. During the little stormy situations that struck my family, I never once being angry at God for not healing my dad the way I wanted it to happen. I know it to the fullest that God always gives the best to those who leaves the option to Him.

Who knew that God is going to give us a bonus of 5 souls? Isn’t like that coolest news ever?

May this verse below become the anchor to our soul in every situation.

Ephesians 3:20

A Promise-Keeper

This is a very difficult title for me to write as I felt I’m far off to be entitled as  a ‘promise-keeper’. However, I felt very strongly to write about this for two reasons;

1. I want to speak to myself and remind myself that I need to be that woman of word.

2. I want to see the world re-living and re-adjusting their standard to the very definition of the word.

Merriam-Webster defined the word ‘promise’ as 

A. a declaration that one will do or refrain from doing something specified

B. a legally binding declaration that gives the person to whom it is made a right to expect or to claim the performance or forbearance of a specified act 

in simpler language the definition of B is explained below. 

reason to expect something <little promise of relief>;especially : ground for expectation of success, improvement, or excellence <shows considerable promise>

Surprisingly, the meaning of vow is closely similar to promise

Vow :  a solemn promise or assertion; specifically : one by which a person is bound to an act, service, or condition

A few months ago, post finishing my 40-days-healthy eating-oath. I saw a success in my weight loss. I’ve lost about 7 kg/15 lbs. Old habits die hard, I slowly came back to my previous eating habit of unconscious eating and gained back my weight. It caused me to make another vow of healthy-eating for 5 months.  I promised God to be eating healthy strictly for 5 months because I wish that 5 months will change my old habit of unhealthy eating with some exceptions that I’ve written on a huge piece of carton. I have been yoyo-dieting for about 10 years therefore I’ve learned that most methods don’t work for me. The only way that works is when I’m dependent to God to be eating healthy. That’s why I promised Him so that I can cling to that promise and realize that I shouldn’t play joke with a being who never once violates His promise.

Turned out that even promising to Him doesn’t guarantee that I will walk my promise. I’ve realized that I care more about food than Him. Therefore, I keep delaying in performing my vow. Sometimes I cried and apologized to God for not keeping my promise. But it doesn’t really do anything to me. I do have issues with commitment. And I have been continually praying that God will help me in this area. 

Sometimes I thought to myself, if I couldn’t keep a small promise, how can I keep a big promise. Such a wedding promise/vow. There’s no way, one can keep a big promise if he/she doesn’t used to keep his/her small promise.

This vow is one hard vow for me. However, I know that I know that I can do all things through Him who strengthens me. It’s just I’m too hardened to listen to Him. Many times He reminded me to not taking that food that I’m lusting over. Yet, I chose to ignore to Him and fall into temptation over and over again. Because of my ignorance, I became powerless. so very powerless. 

All that I can say that is God is faithful and He doesn’t give up on me.

He just doesn’t.

I ask Him not to.

On Saturday, August 24th, I stumbled upon a verse in Isaiah 66 verse 4

“I will send them great trouble—
    all the things they feared.
For when I called, they did not answer.
    When I spoke, they did not listen.
They deliberately sinned before my very eyes
    and chose to do what they know I despise.”

The sentence “they deliberately sinned before my very eyes and chose to do what they know I despise” stuck out so powerfully. It also reminded me over my deliberate sinning of violating my healthy-eating vow.

I cried. Do you think then I would repent and changed immediately. 


However, today (Sunday, August 25th is the day of salvation). This is the day that I’m writing to you to let you know that I will do that 5 months. God’s power is greater than my sin nature. I’m not going to give up. NO. 

 This is not just about me. This oath is about being a change I want to see in the world. I’m sad to this worldwide phenomena where promise is no longer sacred. Promise has almost been similar to joke. It’s getting harder to find a promise-keeper. 

A wise person once said, “if you can’t get your miracle, be the miracle

If I find it hard to meet someone who keep his/her promise, I might as well be that someone. Since I also wish that this world is filled with promise-keepers, I better start becoming one to be able to fill it. By being one, I will have the power and authority when I speak to people or even simply being an inspiration to other people. How can I be an inspiration when I don’t have what it takes to inspire other people?

Why don’t you and I take this promise-keeping journey together and inspire the world? 



Birth and A Glimpse of Heaven’s Feel

Birth is something that has always been celebrated upon; Be it the birth of business, dream, invention because birth symbolizes all the good things; first and foremost: hope and life.

When the royal baby birthed, we all know countless number of people worldwide rejoicing over this baby. We also heard about many who actually sleptover to get the best sight when this baby came out from this hospital. It’s quite funny because majority of the overjoyed didn’t have bloodline to this baby.

Suddenly my mind was brought upon God and and His wide smile when He sees the event of birth. Think about this if the people of England were the excited, how much more God’s. Afterall, He is the one who created us. I became very happy with this revelation because all this time, I never really contemplated upon the God and angels feeling upon physical birth. I’ve only thought about the spiritual birth (born-again event) spoken in Luke 15:10: “ In the same way, I tell you, there is rejoicing in the presence of the angels of God over one sinner who repents.”

I understand that this post is such a light post. But I wrote this with the purpose of encouraging two audiences. First, pregnant mothers who are going through a normal pregnancy, I heard that labor pain is enduringly painful. May you be strengthened to push through knowing that God and milions of angels watching and cheering over the life that has about to be birthed! Second, to any of you who feel that you are unwanted; God and milions of angels want you! Yes you! You are so wanted, so needed, so special, so important. If you can’t feel that or desperate to prove whether I tell you the truth, ask God to reveal to you, because He will!


In Light of My Greatly Blessed, Deeply Loved, Highly Favored, 28th Birthday.

Facebook decided to change it’s layout again on my birthday. Thank you Facebook!

Having a friend named Nita called me a little bit after midnight (even that’s because she couldn’t sleep and I was her getaway).

Having my dear friend (Yenny) surprised me around 7 A.M. with red forest cake even if I just got 2-hour-sleep. And my first word when I saw her in my bedroom was “Tuhan Yesus”

She gave me Reebok resistance band (she knows me SO WELL).

It was lunch time, and I raced with time to get to Holycow Steak House (I didn’t know that during lunch time, its last order is at 2 o’clock). I wouldn’t want to miss free Wagyu Tenderloin for the world (birthday person got a free meal of his/her choice under a condition of wearing the elephant hat). The road was heavily trafficked and I kept on saying “oh God, please make restaurant open still”. I arrived at 13.59.

Chatted with my Korean friend on Skype on my plan to visit her in summer 2014.

Got out of the house and greeted with dark, gloomy, thunder-filled sky showing that it was going to rain soon. Didn’t want to get wet, I decided to look at the clouds and speak, “you’re not going to rain until I got my stuff and come back to the house.”

So it happened! The rain poured exactly when I just closed my house door.

Apparently, My Heavenly Father decided to agree with me this time..haha. Thanks Dad! (well, i’m still grateful even if sometime You disagree)

My only alive Grandma came to our house!


Thank You Lord for just the indescribable amount of ALL THINGS BLESSINGS and LOVE to me throughout my life. You really are the best thing in life and after life. May I become the bride that You so dearly desire.

Love you Jesus!

I’m Reading Again!

I love books. any kind of books that I believe would nourish me.

So the other day when I visited my friend’s house at 11.00 o’clock at night, I purposefully roamed for her book collections. Then I came across this book :


Gobsmacked and jovial were the exact words! I have the whole collection of Sophie Kinsella’s shopaholic series and I remember feeling so desperate wanting to buy this book as well. However, I didn’t have the money to buy and my membership at one of this book club didn’t have this title.

My friend was kind enough to lend me this book. Mind you, I haven’t had time to read from cover to cover for about 1,5 years now. Maybe time is not the issue here. I am a believer of whatever you prioritize, you’d make time for it. no matter what.

One week past and I still didn’t touch the book but deep down a voice inside of me saying that I got to read the book. Deep down, I miss the feeling of reading the actual book and touching the actual paper. I’ve been reading but it has been just articles or news on my gadget.

So yesterday (Friday, February 22, 2013), I gathered or my innerwill and grabbed this book and began to read. Thankfully, I have a time off from work  (I happened to take off sick because I was really sick). I spent almost half day reading and I even read while I was getting a full body massage. (Speaking of getting down to commitment).

Oh yes I did it!  I read the entire 405 pages half day yesterday and about two hours today.

Sidetracking, I have a confession to make. I’m still failing on my 40 days oath but I’m going to get there and finish it. Oh I hope I will.

Back on this book-reading, I have decided to read one book in a month. I need to get back to reading because matter-of-factly, books always enriched you. Fiction or Non Fiction, there’s always something to learn.

And I love to learn!

So what did I learn?

Two things!





This book, I could totally relate to the whole story. The dreams, the ambitions, and the one thing that seems to bring your entire dreams and ambition thrown out of the window. and through that difficulties you learned that you actually enjoyed your life so much more than before. You feel like you found yourself through your loss.

Such as

1. Slower pace of life.

2. Loving the countryside.

3. Thinking of spending retirement on the countryside.

4. Enjoy being a domestic goddess 😀

I wonder who that the person mentioned above is ..*cough*

Off for now, time for another nourishment. and what I meant by nourishment is.


Yep, you guessed it right 🙂

40 Days Oath

I finally decided to brave myself to write down my oath which has long been despised, 40 days eating plain food (no sugar, no salt, no dairy, no fried food, no white flour, all healthy).

I have been struggling with food obssession all my life. Because of this, my weight kept on adding.  The worse was when I spent a year in the US. I gained about 12 kgs (26,5 lbs). I tried to lose weight since I was in HS but it never last that long.  

It’s been about 10 years last year I’m still struggling on my weight and my self-control in food.

Therefore, about sometime last year, I made an oath to God to eat plain food for 40 days. At that time, I felt like I was driven to do so. Up until now, I’m not sure whose voice was that but I know it’s indeed not my flesh. Who wanted to eat plain food for 40 days??

I said ‘yes’ but I never was able to complete that 40 days. I quit after 1 week, 2 weeks, or just recently after 3 weeks. It was indeed hard especially when I’m in a ‘big foodie’ community. My parents eat out every week and I could only sit and saw them eat. My friends sometime asked me out for lunch/dinner meeting and I felt so terrible making my friends feeling guilty of seeing me eat my own prepared food or sometimes not eating anything when I didn’t have time to prepare. 

The judgement that come to me was also hard to bear. They thought I’m stubborn when they asked me to eat even a little and I refused. Not everyone understood what I’m doing and sometimes I felt like a burden to them through what I’m doing as well. 

Actually I have two oaths to God that I have to fulfill. Honestly, I didn’t want to make this oath because I fully realized about the bible verses on making an oath. But aren’t we all supposed to do what we felt strongly asked by God?

Help me God to go through this. I really want to endure this 40 days with commitment and love. I know how unpleasant the feeling is when the one who we ask to do something do it with complain.

Phillipians 2:14 says “do everything without grumbling or arguing“. 

On a side note, I’m sure that doesn’t apply to every single thing that you do in life. I think that we shouldn’t  take this verse literally without putting it in context.  Of course sometimes you argued with your peers or your boss while doing something that they asked you to do when you felt that you have a better way of doing it. 

So anyway, here I am, honestly with fear wanting to renew my commitment of 40 days plain food starting tomorrow February 7, 2013 and ends on March 19, 2013 to You Lord. Help me to remember that Your grace is sufficient and I’ll endure no matter what the cost. Help me Jesus, I’m so afraid of failing you again. After failing you like gazillion times. 

I’m scared Jesus. Help me!